Okay Hold on Tight

So....Deb was supposed to make me stay on schedule and she let me slip so now I have to catch you up on all the goinz-onz in my life.
Well on Saturday 9/16 MM and I went looking for engagement rings. I chose a very beautiful marquise cut diamond with matching marquise on each side. When am I going to get the ring you ask? Well Hell if I know. I guess that is why I'm really not all that excited.
Now on that saturday night, I almost got car jacked. So I'm on my way home from my mom's around 9 pm. My daughter is in the back seat sleeping, so I decide that I'm going to take this short cut, that I take just about everytime I come home from my mom's, around the back of Friends Hospital. This black car is seriously tailing me close, so I tap the breaks so he can get up off my ass, so he backs up but starts driving very erratically, now I'm thinking this guy is drunk. So I get to the light and its red, I'm praying that he doesn't hit me, but he stops almost 2 full car lengths away from me and turns his headlight off. Now, I'm like WTF, so 2 guys jump out of the car on each side and my instincts just told me to gun it. I took the red light and hit a left turn towards the Boulevard. Thank God they jumped in their car and took off the other way.
Well a week after that, someone steals my car from in front of my house and crashes it on I495 in Delaware. Totals my car and at this moment is still in intensive care in the hospital, 19 yr old jackass. Thank God for good insurance and a great adjuster; the next day I was rolling in a Mitsubishi Galant, $140 less car note and $30 less on insurance. What a blessing.
I believe you may be caught up now. Deb, don't let me wait this long anymore.

She used me and left me for broke!!!

So... I was riding the bus today and this very nicely dressed man sits next to me. After riding a few blocks he starts complaining about how this woman stomped on his heart, used him for sex and left him for broke. He then went on and on about how she wrote songs about him but wouldn't give him any royalty money. So I had to know who this mystery woman was, and his response...Chaka Khan!!! I was floored, but I continued to inquire about their relationship. He proceeds to tell me that all she did was use him for sex and she wouldn't even let him get a hair cut because she didn't cut her hair. So I asked what songs she wrote about him, he then tells me that "Tell Me Something Good" and "I Feel For You" were about him. I acted impressed by how long he tried to stick with her by saying "Wow, You stuck around for a long time." He then declares "Yeah I gave her my heart and my body and what did I get...A ride on this bus" I damn near pissed my pants. Oh to be in Philly.

It's beginning to look like...A Damn Good Weekend

So...I told you Missy has been quite a handful this week. Well I asked my Mom if she would take her for just one night. I would drop her off on Saturday afternoon and pick her up Sunday for church. Well my mom agreed, so of course I am thrilled. I just got a call from MM and he wants to hook up Saturday night because his son is going to a sleep over at his cousin's house. Of course he can hook up, what better stress reliever than toe-curling sex. Plus I have some new positions I want to try. In addition to that I just spoke to one of the owners of a Manayunk restaurant and told him we may stop by for dinner on Saturday and he offered to pick up the tab. FREE FOOD, GOOD MOVIE, GREAT SEX AND NO CHILDREN!!!!! Hot Damn I'm going to have a great weekend.

Loosing it!

So...I have always believed that children are a gift from God. They didn't ask to be here, we as adults make the conscience choice to bring them into the world. I have the utmost respect for those individual who can honestly say "I am unfit/incapable of raising a child on my own" and in turn place the child up for adoption. I on the other hand, felt I could effectively raise a child. I wanted my daughter more than breath from the moment I found out that I was pregnant. I understood that by many standards I had my daughter late in life. I was 32 when I gave birth to her and by then my 3 closest friend had children ages 2 & 10, 7 and 8; they had effectively gone through every thing I was about to embark on. But nonetheless, despite her jackass of a father not wanting me to have her, I would make her my life's work, raising her the best way I possibly could in order for her to become a productive member of society.
Along the way she has provided me with some of the funniest episode I have ever been pleasured to witness. She makes my heart smile ever time I see her, her laugh makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. She is really smart and I know every one says that about their children, but seriously, she blows me away, and at this point I can't even imagine life without her. However, if there is one thing I have learned, it is that a 2 year old can drive you to brink of a breakdown.
Last night my daughter must have really been feeling needy. I'm in school trying to finish up my degree and she won't let me read my textbook. I'm doing hair trying to make extra money to pay for her tuition and clothes and she is trying to lay on my lap. The whole time she is pulling on me and whining and making a mess of my living room and knocking over things because she can't have my undivided attention (which she doesn't usually desire to have). So at one point I completely lost it. I was in tears calling my mom because I really just didn't know what to do. I don't believe you should ever seriously hurt a child. My daughter does get popped when she doesn't listen but usually all I have to say is 'I'm going to pop you' and she straightens right up. But I do understand how they can push your last button on a bad day and if you are not strong enough to walk away or have a support system to talk to you can hurt them. PLEASE UNDERSTAND I AM IN NO WAY CONDONING THE ABUSE OF A CHILD!!!!!!! They are defenseless and need your protection from the world. But thank God, my mom calmed me down, I put Missy to bed and took a long hot jasmine & chamomile bubble bath and off to dream land.

The Bridal Shower Update

So...I saw the bride yesterday for the first time since the shower. She pulled me to the side and gave me this big hug and said "That is from Bij (her fiance)" Well she must have recognized the confused look on my face since I have never been introduced to him. She goes on to tell me how much he liked the lingerie and wanted to know if she had to wait for the honeymoon to where it. Then she severely crossed the line into 'T.M.I.', telling me how he went and dusted off the pornos and they put the kids to bed and screwed all over the place. You could tell she was truly pleased with the evening; going on about how she is so glad she got her tubes tied (You know I can relate).